How Is One To Know

Quite a few times, since my angel of a daughter was born, I have gotten asked "why have you taken so damn many pictures of her?" I wanted to address this once and for all, even though I shouldn't, I will.

First of all I am a professional photographer. So when you have all that equipment, studio and available time to take some pictures, you do. Why not? Its free, and its always great to practice anyway (even though after 13 years I am still taking pictures and loving it). Second, I love photography, and photography of babies and children. Its actually how my photography studio got its start. Third, Olivia is not camera shy like most babies, so she will pose and let me try new things on her, before I try them on a paying client. Such as different poses, lighting, etc. And last but not least, I have, oh, about 5 pictures of myself as child. They were burned in a fire, and some were left in an attic to rot since 1978. So those pictures of me are gone forever. I only wish I had them today, so I could see what I was like, the things I did, etc. I guess I should make one more point, I LOVE MY DAUGHTER. Why not take pictures of her every day. She changes daily, just ask the few who are close enough to her to notice. I am documenting her life as she grows up. To those who criticize me for taking so many pics of her, grow up and get a life. 90% of the people who I talk to, agree with me. Take the damn pictures, you only get one shot at growing up.

This is all about giving Olivia what I never had. One of those, was images growing up of my childhood. Now she has them. Even if I wasn't a photographer, I would have taken over a thousand pictures a year. Maybe more because I would be experimenting with the camera, etc.

When I do hit my 10,000th picture of Olivia, I will smile, and take another 10,000.

On another note, I never could imagine I could love something so much. When she was born, I was forever hers! She is my little girl and I think the world of her. I thought to myself when I was taking pictures of her in the delivery room "how could you love something so much that you just met?" I am glad (and a few other people I might add), that I have those delivery room pictures. They are now, priceless. Documenting her through the NICU, those too are priceless images that we can show to her, and let her see just how bad she wanted to live, and be a part of our lives. She made it through the NICU, and into this world, the least she deserves is a daddy who gives a shit, and takes pictures and loves her so very much. I will give you a little clearer picture, the other say she wanted to go outside. I put my shoes on, took hers off, and walked around the yard with her. Except her feet were on my shoes as I walked, and we walked all over the place. It was beautiful and a memory I will never, ever forget.

One day somebody will thank me. Instead of criticizing me for taking pictures of my daughter. Oh yeah, shes mine not yours. Off to take another 100 pictures...